25 February 2009
Is She Cross-eyed?
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Medical: Eye
23 February 2009
Another Useless Visit
Vera went to see the Renal doctor today (the same one that called her 'low IQ'). All we wanted was a routine kidney ultrasound for Wilm's Tumour. As suggested by the literature we've read, we should do one every 6 months for Vera.
Ian brought Vera and I was late for the appointment (from work). When I saw him, he had just come out of the room and was fuming. He had asked her for the ultrasound, and she said there's no need because Vera's fine, since her blood pressure is ok. And said Vera doesn't have to see her anymore. She asked what is the basis of getting a scan and we told her about the literature we've read from the states, where so much more research is done on T18. She was quite disbelieving. Ian asked her on what basis she's judging that Vera is ok, and she says because she is the doctor. Okay. You're the head of the pediatric renal dept, so kudos to you for a great attitude.
Why can't she get a scan? We are the ones paying for it. Why doesn't she want to see Vera anymore? A waste of time on a lost cause?
You know what, WE don't want to see her anymore either. If you can't change 'em, change 'em.
Ian brought Vera and I was late for the appointment (from work). When I saw him, he had just come out of the room and was fuming. He had asked her for the ultrasound, and she said there's no need because Vera's fine, since her blood pressure is ok. And said Vera doesn't have to see her anymore. She asked what is the basis of getting a scan and we told her about the literature we've read from the states, where so much more research is done on T18. She was quite disbelieving. Ian asked her on what basis she's judging that Vera is ok, and she says because she is the doctor. Okay. You're the head of the pediatric renal dept, so kudos to you for a great attitude.
Why can't she get a scan? We are the ones paying for it. Why doesn't she want to see Vera anymore? A waste of time on a lost cause?
You know what, WE don't want to see her anymore either. If you can't change 'em, change 'em.
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Medical: Renal,
trisomy 18
Presents Galore
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celebrating milestones
22 February 2009
Vera Turns One
Never did we think this day would come. But it has.
Here we are, among friends and family in celebration of a little girl who has defied logic and surpassed expectations.
It has been the most eventful 12 months of our lives. But those of you who cared graced our journey with love, kindness and most importantly, precious personal time.
Aunties who looked after her; mothers who blog to offer advice and encouragement; mothers who offered their breastmilk and supplements; grandparents who delivered milk; friends who brought little friends over; colleagues who packed lunch and bought diapers and many more.
If we had worried if you would accept her despite her condition, we needn’t have. Your love and concern for Vera comes shining through. She feels it in the way you talk to her, sing to her, cajole her and can’t take her eyes off your face. She’s loving being here in this world, perhaps even more than many of us. Today is for you, as much as it is for Vera, in thanks for all that you’ve done for us.
Labels:
celebrating milestones,
family n friends
21 February 2009
The Big Celebration
Vera will be the star attraction tomorrow. We'll be celebrating her 1st birthday with family and friends, and the guest list has come up to almost 90 people! Hopefully, the little girl won't be too overwhelmed. But the stimulation could mean very good sleep after the party for her (or the opposite). Due to her low immunity, we are advised to keep her away from big crowds. So fingers crossed that she doesn't catch a bug from anybody. Worry, worry. 'Tis what all mothers do.
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celebrating milestones
19 February 2009
Not Being There
A colleague asked me, "How was Vera's first day at school?" I was stumped. I didn't know. I wasn't there. Vera has already been at Rainbow Centre twice. She goes there twice a week, for two hours each time. Who are her classmates? Who are her teachers? How is she taking to the new environment? All the things a mother should know. It struck me that I may be missing out on what is probably the highlight of little Vera's life (don't we all remember how much school meant to us?), because of work.
This is the dilemma of every working mother, isn't it? Working to pay the bills versus spending time with your child. The worst (or best) part is, Vera is now SO responsive, and SO charming that I am actually falling in love with her. As she grows, she most definitely grows on me. Yet, I am not one who can take staying at home full-time. To work or not to work? Perhaps the ideal solution is part of both. How to achieve that kind of balanced arrangement is the big question!
This is the dilemma of every working mother, isn't it? Working to pay the bills versus spending time with your child. The worst (or best) part is, Vera is now SO responsive, and SO charming that I am actually falling in love with her. As she grows, she most definitely grows on me. Yet, I am not one who can take staying at home full-time. To work or not to work? Perhaps the ideal solution is part of both. How to achieve that kind of balanced arrangement is the big question!
Labels:
early intervention,
motherhood
16 February 2009
Walk In The Park 7
(The little girl is at present discovering the use of her hands, how they move in front of her face. See how her hands open up? Those used to be tightly clenched at birth, a Trisomy 18 trait. Behold the power of touch!)
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motor development,
outings
Vera's First Tooth
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physical development
12 February 2009
Chiropractor Visit
Finally after months of dallying, Vera sees a Chiropractor. She confirms that her upper spine is curving to one side quite prominently (scoliosis), as a direct result of her always turning her head to one side (torticollis). As for her right leg it probably because that side of the hip is more locked up and has less motion, causing it to seem shorter. She is also still hyper-extending her neck (head tilting backwards), a sign of neck muscle tension.
Course of action:
1) We have to continue to get her to look to her right instead of her favourite side. We must be careful of overstretching though, because that could tighten the ligaments even more.
2) We have to support the back of her head and keep it from tilting backwards when we carry her.
3) We have to work, work, work at strengthening her neck muscles. Much more tummy time and head lifting is needed. Unless her neck issue – torticollis - is resolved, there’s really nothing much else that can be done.
4) We have to do less carrying and more Vera-sitting-by-herself. Best to have her facing forward, sitting in our lap. Ok, now I’m considering the special bumbo chair. The car seat isn’t ideal, it puts much pressure on her spine.
Course of action:
1) We have to continue to get her to look to her right instead of her favourite side. We must be careful of overstretching though, because that could tighten the ligaments even more.
2) We have to support the back of her head and keep it from tilting backwards when we carry her.
3) We have to work, work, work at strengthening her neck muscles. Much more tummy time and head lifting is needed. Unless her neck issue – torticollis - is resolved, there’s really nothing much else that can be done.
4) We have to do less carrying and more Vera-sitting-by-herself. Best to have her facing forward, sitting in our lap. Ok, now I’m considering the special bumbo chair. The car seat isn’t ideal, it puts much pressure on her spine.
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Medical: Spine,
physiotherapy
07 February 2009
Teething Toy
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feeding therapy
Feet Fancy
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physical development,
physiotherapy
05 February 2009
Going To School
Vera is going to school! Can you believe it? Way before normal kids haha. Okay, it's not a school school, but an early intervention programme. Ian and I visited the school today. It has a nice name too - Rainbow Centre. (Yishun Park School). It's brand new, just opened less than a year, has got a big swimming pool and looks like a mini country club. For the first time, I entered the world where disabled kids go to learn. As we toured the school grounds, we saw a puny little girl, probably 4 years old, taking tentative steps in a walker. She walked nearly 2o metres in it! Looking at her, I got all emotional. "Wow, how hard she must have worked to do that!" Tears welled up in my eyes. Would Vera make it to one day accomplish that? The thought overwhelmed me.
What is normally a good few-months wait for a placement turned out to be an immediate vacancy. Vera could be going to school as early as next week! Excited as I am, I am wary about her catching more viruses there. Plus, she hasn't gone for any of her vaccinations, so that is another worry. But that's not gonna stop us from letting her experience going to school. Even if it's for one day!
What is normally a good few-months wait for a placement turned out to be an immediate vacancy. Vera could be going to school as early as next week! Excited as I am, I am wary about her catching more viruses there. Plus, she hasn't gone for any of her vaccinations, so that is another worry. But that's not gonna stop us from letting her experience going to school. Even if it's for one day!
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early intervention
03 February 2009
Mucus Medicine
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Medical: Respiratory
29 January 2009
Mr Mucus Is Back
Our celebration was shortlived. Vera is down with the flu bug once again. We don't know how she caught it this time. Maybe from the chilly weather that doesn't seem to abate, even though it's already near February. Maybe from someone in the crowd during the celebration. Seeing her healthy makes us forget that her immune system is actually rather weak. Mommy has some immune-system supplements generously given by a kind mother but was so busy with the new helper to start them proper. Now is the time I guess. No more New Year visiting for us for now.
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Medical: Respiratory
My First Ang Pow
Vera had a really good time. She was good with the crowds and stayed up past her usual day naps because of all the stimulation. Thank you uncles and aunties for all the ang pows (red packets) for little Vera.
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family n friends
24 January 2009
Happy 11th Month
For those who enjoy her with us, thank you for walking this far with us to the one year mark! We look forward to sharing much more of Vera's trials and tribulations with you.
Labels:
celebrating milestones,
family n friends
22 January 2009
One Good Turn
For those not in the know, this is a major milestone for T18 babies. It shows that her spine is slowly strengthening and she's learning about the motion of her limbs and what they can do. What a great 11th month gift for us!
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motor development
21 January 2009
Who To Believe
Vera's night Darth Vader breathing was worrying mommy, especially when a Chinese physician listened to her lungs and said that there was a lot of phlegm suck inside. So we brought her to Dr. B for an urgent visit to confirm. I was already prepared to have her suctioned again with the machine.
Turns out, Dr B says her lungs sound very clear. The gurgling noises are probably from pooling of saliva in her throat and a floppy airway. The latter is common in T18 babies. The medical term is Tracheomalacia. We'll be seeing the ENT to determine the severity of the problem. Will keep you posted.
Turns out, Dr B says her lungs sound very clear. The gurgling noises are probably from pooling of saliva in her throat and a floppy airway. The latter is common in T18 babies. The medical term is Tracheomalacia. We'll be seeing the ENT to determine the severity of the problem. Will keep you posted.
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Medical: ENT,
Medical: Respiratory
18 January 2009
Her Old Self
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Medical: Respiratory,
outings
14 January 2009
Vera Has Scoliosis
We brought Vera for massage to clear her mucus and the doctor felt a clear S-curve on her spine.
Oh no. So it has worsened. Probably because she enjoys standing so much, but also because her one leg is significantly shorter than the other, by almost an inch and a half, the slanting posture is probably putting strain on her spine. Also, it could be that we've been carrying her upright most of the time since she was a baby, and her neck can't support her head well, putting extra pressure on her spine.
As I see a Chiropractor regularly myself, I know how a misaligned spine can wreak havoc on everything from our breathing, to headaches, backaches, and tiredness.
We are clueless now as to what to do: What is the best treatment now to prevent the scoliosis from getting worse? Do we bring her to an Osteopath, a Chiropractor, a Physiotherapist or an Orthopedic surgeon? We hope to get some answers soon.
Oh no. So it has worsened. Probably because she enjoys standing so much, but also because her one leg is significantly shorter than the other, by almost an inch and a half, the slanting posture is probably putting strain on her spine. Also, it could be that we've been carrying her upright most of the time since she was a baby, and her neck can't support her head well, putting extra pressure on her spine.
As I see a Chiropractor regularly myself, I know how a misaligned spine can wreak havoc on everything from our breathing, to headaches, backaches, and tiredness.
We are clueless now as to what to do: What is the best treatment now to prevent the scoliosis from getting worse? Do we bring her to an Osteopath, a Chiropractor, a Physiotherapist or an Orthopedic surgeon? We hope to get some answers soon.
Labels:
Medical: Spine
12 January 2009
I Love My Daddy
my daddy carries me
to the window, downstairs,
here there, everywhere.
I like to look at his face
and snuggle in his embrace.
Labels:
fatherhood,
philosophical
11 January 2009
Breathing Issues
Could Vera be having obstructive sleep apnea?
This is her breathing pattern at night: 5 short breaths, followed by silence. Repeat again. Occasionally, 3 coughs, followed by a sneeze. There is a pattern here we know for sure. She's less alert in the day as well, I don't know if it's because she's working too hard at night at breathing.
I've read that it can worsen hypertension. Her latest readings were higher than before, I have a strange feeling they could be linked. Will we have to put her on a breathing machine to help her breathe at night? Does she have floppy airways? Questions, questions...
This cold is really worrying me. It's been nearly a month now since it started. Also, it's the cold season, although we don't have snow, it's chilly, more so since the weather changes became more pronounced over the years.
Vera seems to do alright in the day, upright, and struggles when lying down. I've given up sleeping, given the light sleeper that I am, because I just can't sleep with her noisy breathing. So here I am, being the night watch yet again.
This is her breathing pattern at night: 5 short breaths, followed by silence. Repeat again. Occasionally, 3 coughs, followed by a sneeze. There is a pattern here we know for sure. She's less alert in the day as well, I don't know if it's because she's working too hard at night at breathing.
I've read that it can worsen hypertension. Her latest readings were higher than before, I have a strange feeling they could be linked. Will we have to put her on a breathing machine to help her breathe at night? Does she have floppy airways? Questions, questions...
This cold is really worrying me. It's been nearly a month now since it started. Also, it's the cold season, although we don't have snow, it's chilly, more so since the weather changes became more pronounced over the years.
Vera seems to do alright in the day, upright, and struggles when lying down. I've given up sleeping, given the light sleeper that I am, because I just can't sleep with her noisy breathing. So here I am, being the night watch yet again.
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Medical: Respiratory
07 January 2009
Sleeping It Through
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Medical: Respiratory
05 January 2009
A Hard Day's Night
Just 4 days into the new year, and Vera is more sick than ever. This time, Mr Mucous is Mr Running Tap and he's brought with him Cousin Cough and Fever Friend. Vera is no match for them. We looked at her and knew, 'it's gonna be a bad night'. Ian and I were up practically the whole night, suctioning snot, turning her, feeding her, rocking her back to sleep, suctioning snot, zzz, suctioning snot, zzz, suctioning... I try to remind myself that she was the one in discomfort, not being able to breathe and sleep, while I just have to deal with lack of sleep. We've made the call to give her antibiotics, Augmentin, although we know it can be a bit strong for little stomachs. Well, we'll have to take our chances. Tonight is gonna be bad too I dare say. Afterall, she has to get worse before getting better. Fingers crossed, the Superbugs will take a hike and I'll get my happy little girl back.
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Medical: Respiratory
01 January 2009
Chin Up Part I
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motor development,
physiotherapy
Happy 2009 Vera
Happy New Year to you. You're 10 months old now. Although you spent the first days of your life surrounded by beeping machines and tubes, you managed to come out and see this wonderful world. Though most times you've been home, you've also been to parks which were too bright for you, you've been on car rides where you enjoy looking at the bright passing lights, and you've seen fireworks for the first time! You must be wondering what the celebration's all about. Let's just say they are for you. Although you've had your 1st fall, your 1st bout of flu, and you're finding it difficult to breathe well with all your congestion in the chest, you're coping with them. From a newborn who could not see or follow very well, you're now captivated by any face that speaks to you and you stare innocently for the longest time. Though you cannot yet swallow well, you did enough to pass your 1st VFSS (swallow study), and you enjoy sips of water by mouth. The best part though is your toothless smile, you respond whenever you're tickled or massaged. All mommy asked for was for you to see and smile - but you've given us so, so much more! Hmmm...looks like we have to set new expectations for you : )
In 2009, you're probably gonna get a g-tube because you're getting quite good at ripping off your ng tube; you're probably gonna go to school for the 1st time (early intervention programme) and get started on vaccinations (we hope you'll take them well).
Mommy and Daddy have been blessed with a lot of people who shower love on you. I think that's why from a highly irritable little baby you're now actually pretty calm and happy (when you're well that is). Love and attention works wonders.
So thank you for coming into our lives. And showing mommy what life is about: Joy through sorrow, achievement through perseverance, and love through kindness.
Happy New Year Vera!
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celebrating milestones
29 December 2008
Better Today
After 2 days of intensive care from my mom, Vera is better today. She stayed over and was a great help - a non-stop wailing baby that's inconsolable round-the-clock can REALLY get to you. It reached a point where I just said "I give up", handed her to my mom and went to sleep. At 6am in the morning.
The worst seems to be over. She smiled a little today. And started to stand in our arms. She's only vomitted once. Looks like she's on her way back to the Vera we know. Hooray for Mamas who come to the rescue!
The worst seems to be over. She smiled a little today. And started to stand in our arms. She's only vomitted once. Looks like she's on her way back to the Vera we know. Hooray for Mamas who come to the rescue!
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family n friends
Falling Off The Bed
Vera fell off her cot 2 nights ago. And mommy has every reason to be blamed for it. How did it happen? Aren't we supposed to pull up the railing when she sleeps? How could we be so careless?
Mommy's guilty as charged.
A couple of factors all added up. Usually, I'm the one who gets up intermittently through the night each time Vera sounds off that she needs to be turned. Either because she's heated up on one side, or because of nose blockage. That night, for some reason, I went to sleep in another room. Vera seldom moves like she did months ago, turning 90 degrees in her cot, so it really never occurred to us to pull up the railing. Also, to help keep her milk down during night feedings, her cot is slightly elevated, slanting towards the movable railing of the cot.
The little girl must have wriggled to be turned, all the way until her legs were hanging off the bed. And all this while, Daddy didn't hear a thing. He's not a light sleeper like me.
At 330am, I was awakened by The Thud. It was so loud I heard it from the room down the hallway. It was every parent's worst nightmare. In the dark, I fumbled to see what happened. "She fell off her cot," Ian said. He had already picked her up from the floor. By then, she was wailing. In the dark, I saw blood on Ian's T-shirt. I panicked. "Oh no, she's bleeding...what have we done?" I call Dr B. It was 4am. She told me to put cold compress on her mouth to stop the bleeding before bringing her to the hospital. In a blur, we packed her bag and sped down.
Please God, don't let her head be injured, please, please. Vera finally calmed down in the car, or finally awakened momentarily from the shock. In the bright light at the A&E, we saw that her upper lip frenulum - the soft tissue linking gum to upper lip - was torn. She must have fell head down and the upper jaw took the fall. We fed her and soon she was asleep. In the car ride home, she recoiled several times as if in aftershock.
The past two days have been pretty stressful. She's vomitted 5 times in a day, probably because she's been crying too much. Her upper lip is bruised and blue-black as she's experiences real pain for the first time. Mr. Mucus is back with a vengeance (or did he even go away) and she sleeps fitfully because she can barely breathe through the blockage.
She's stopped standing like she used to in our arms, stopped smiling, and stopped touching her lips with her fingers (her favourite pasttime).
Although there may be no head injury, what I'm afraid of is that there could have been some impact on her spine. We'll be bringing her to a Chiropractor to find out. Fingers doubly crossed.
Mommy's guilty as charged.
A couple of factors all added up. Usually, I'm the one who gets up intermittently through the night each time Vera sounds off that she needs to be turned. Either because she's heated up on one side, or because of nose blockage. That night, for some reason, I went to sleep in another room. Vera seldom moves like she did months ago, turning 90 degrees in her cot, so it really never occurred to us to pull up the railing. Also, to help keep her milk down during night feedings, her cot is slightly elevated, slanting towards the movable railing of the cot.
The little girl must have wriggled to be turned, all the way until her legs were hanging off the bed. And all this while, Daddy didn't hear a thing. He's not a light sleeper like me.
At 330am, I was awakened by The Thud. It was so loud I heard it from the room down the hallway. It was every parent's worst nightmare. In the dark, I fumbled to see what happened. "She fell off her cot," Ian said. He had already picked her up from the floor. By then, she was wailing. In the dark, I saw blood on Ian's T-shirt. I panicked. "Oh no, she's bleeding...what have we done?" I call Dr B. It was 4am. She told me to put cold compress on her mouth to stop the bleeding before bringing her to the hospital. In a blur, we packed her bag and sped down.
Please God, don't let her head be injured, please, please. Vera finally calmed down in the car, or finally awakened momentarily from the shock. In the bright light at the A&E, we saw that her upper lip frenulum - the soft tissue linking gum to upper lip - was torn. She must have fell head down and the upper jaw took the fall. We fed her and soon she was asleep. In the car ride home, she recoiled several times as if in aftershock.
The past two days have been pretty stressful. She's vomitted 5 times in a day, probably because she's been crying too much. Her upper lip is bruised and blue-black as she's experiences real pain for the first time. Mr. Mucus is back with a vengeance (or did he even go away) and she sleeps fitfully because she can barely breathe through the blockage.
She's stopped standing like she used to in our arms, stopped smiling, and stopped touching her lips with her fingers (her favourite pasttime).
Although there may be no head injury, what I'm afraid of is that there could have been some impact on her spine. We'll be bringing her to a Chiropractor to find out. Fingers doubly crossed.
26 December 2008
Mucus Madness
It's crazy. Vera's nose has been flowing with mucus for 13 days now. Sometimes it's green and thick, sometimes thin and stringy. Whatever it is, stuffs her up, cakes up and makes her nostril opening smaller, blocks her airway and causes bouts of gagging when she sleeps, and has to be turned left-right-left through the night. She hates us dabbing it away.
I had a hunch that having the tube through her nose was aggravating the situation, so we switched it to the other nostril. Voila! The former nostril stopped dripping! (at least for now) I'm getting real tired of this tube...
But having recently seen the amount of maintenance and cost that goes into g-tube feeding...cleaning the tubes and sterilising all the apparatus parts after every feed, have also made me think twice. Maybe we'll let Vera decide. The day she can dexteriously pull out the tube, we'll get the message.
Meanwhile, please give Vera a break Mr Mucus. It's Christmas, go on holiday.
I had a hunch that having the tube through her nose was aggravating the situation, so we switched it to the other nostril. Voila! The former nostril stopped dripping! (at least for now) I'm getting real tired of this tube...
But having recently seen the amount of maintenance and cost that goes into g-tube feeding...cleaning the tubes and sterilising all the apparatus parts after every feed, have also made me think twice. Maybe we'll let Vera decide. The day she can dexteriously pull out the tube, we'll get the message.
Meanwhile, please give Vera a break Mr Mucus. It's Christmas, go on holiday.
Labels:
Medical: ENT,
Medical: GI
18 December 2008
Falling Sick
Vera has caught a bug from none other than her momma. I caught it from the office and was down with a bad runny nose and sore throat. Vera caught it soon after. The bout is into its 6th day now. She’s been so stuffed up with mucus and unable to clear it, she sounds raspy with the sore throat, and it interrupts her sleep at night every few minutes because she can’t breathe properly. Ian and I are up through the night, rocking her back to sleep every time she gets choked on the mucus. I’ve tried Illadin nose drops but it doesn’t really help and she hates it. We try sucking the mucus out manually with a nose cleaner but it’s so slow and doesn’t have strong suction power. I’m really tempted to rent one of those industrial ones they use in hospitals…like a vacuum machine! Anything to make Vera feel less congested.
Daily PT and speech therapy is completely on hold and I worry she’ll regress. Already her neck stiffness has gotten worse.
Babies falling sick are so stressful.
Daily PT and speech therapy is completely on hold and I worry she’ll regress. Already her neck stiffness has gotten worse.
Babies falling sick are so stressful.
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Medical: ENT,
Medical: Respiratory
15 December 2008
Fingers Are Fun
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motor development
Her First Christmas
This is the closest Vera will get to snowmen. I wonder if she'll ever get to experience snow. Come to think of it, neither have I. Maybe next winter, just maybe.Christmastime always makes me realise how quickly the year has flown by. It has been a life-changing year for Ian and I. It started as one hell of a roller coaster ride and has turned out so, so different from what we were told to expect. Vera shouldn't be seeing her first Christmas, but she is.
Here's to many more Christmases with you, little girl.
10 December 2008
Overworked
If you're wondering why posts have been few and far between, that's because Vera's momma has been working crazy hours the last 2 weeks. 10pm, 1am, and tonight, well, let's just say the night is still young.
You see, I am the writer on an advertising pitch. And winning, is the aim here. I love the challenge of the work but the hours working up to the presentation are punishing. (Once, I worked till 6am in the morning.)
But now, I'm not the only one who's affected. When mommy works late, daddy has no respite all day with Vera. That's one too many single-handed-tube-feeds-leading-up-to-vomitting in a day. Daddy doesn't complain, but mommy feels bad.
But most of all, mommy misses Vera. Last night, she slept at 1am, and still I couldn't catch her.
Should mommy continue working this hard?
You see, I am the writer on an advertising pitch. And winning, is the aim here. I love the challenge of the work but the hours working up to the presentation are punishing. (Once, I worked till 6am in the morning.)
But now, I'm not the only one who's affected. When mommy works late, daddy has no respite all day with Vera. That's one too many single-handed-tube-feeds-leading-up-to-vomitting in a day. Daddy doesn't complain, but mommy feels bad.
But most of all, mommy misses Vera. Last night, she slept at 1am, and still I couldn't catch her.
Should mommy continue working this hard?
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motherhood
06 December 2008
Losing Weight
Vera's been losing weight over the past month. 7.6kg, 7.5kg, 7.4kg (16pounds). I wonder if this is average for 10 month old Trisomy babies? We're definitely underfeeding her. But the girl isn't able to take very much at one go. 120ml (4 oz) every 3 hourly is what she's on now. We don't feed her at night though in case it disrupts her sleep. Hopefully, it doesn't continue to slide.
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Medical: GI
Music Please
We know it's not just the lights, but more the nursery rhyme music. Other musical toys seem to work as well. So, can Vera hear some? We don't need a test to tell us that.
27 November 2008
Another Big Sister
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family n friends
9th Month Update
1) Blood pressure: was moderately high, no change. According to her paediatrician, it's systemic and not pulmonary. Latest reading last week was 102/51 and 90/63.
2) Eyes: Right eye still lagging behind left eye in clearing of the haze, but both eyes move much faster now (almost immediately) in following objects and faces. Both eyes seem to move in unison.
3) Ears: Although Vera failed the hearing test at 8 months, we're pretty positive she has some hearing. She turns to sound, and responds to musical toys. So much for costly tests.
4) Breathing: Still a noisy breather when sleeping, but we've noticed some nights where she's pretty silent for a period of time. Definitely not the congestion during the initial period of switching to nasal feeding tube.
5) Teething: Definitely, although no signs of any teeth yet. She keeps gnawing at her fingers and hand, and can get pretty upset when she can't cos we're holding her by her armpits like a pair of crutches. Some drooling has begun.
6) Feeding: Therapy continues post VFSS. We're getting her used to spoon feeding. Water is well-received in tiny spoon sips, puree too, but not if the consistence is too thick. However, liquids still flow too fast down (it's like how we take a gulp) and choking occurs. She does not like more than 1 teaspoon of puree though (what a long way to go...)
7) Nasal Tube: Vera's face has been marred by rash caused by the sticky tape. It is aggravated in hot environments (triggered by our over-ambitious Big Walk) and by her constant face-scratching. We alternate the tube position from cheek to cheek to allow the opposite side to heal.
8) Raised chest: Vera's chest protrudes on the heart side i.e. her left. We think this is linked to the thickening of some of the muscles surrounding the heart. It is probable that she is using extra effort to breathe and this causes her heart to work much hard (hence developing muscles!) This is not a cause for concern now (but maybe in future it may).
9) Flab: Double chin and tummy have excess blubber hee.
10) Neck Control: Vera is still weak in this area. On her tummy, she can turn her head from side to side. However, she still cannot hold her head up, nor tuck her arms to her chest to push herself up. As she gets heavier, this will get harder.
11) Fingers: We've seen marked improvement in her fingers. No longer are her fingers clenched. After months of intensive daily massage and holding, they have relaxed so much you can almost hold them to a flat palm (almost). In fact, now we're having the opposite problem of getting her to grip things! But a few days ago, she did hold up a pencil for a few seconds so we'll continue gripping therapy. Her thumbs however, have developed a life of their own. They are her most responsive fingers. When she's held in the position shown below, (standing is her favourite thing), she'll proceed to 'play the guitar' with her thumb! Imagine strumming a guitar, up and down with just your thumb. Daddy says she even did it with both thumbs today. Thumbs up!
12) Legs and feet: These are much more relaxed now. Kudos to her Physical Trainer Ian. They are pushing against the ground more now in a prone position. Far from any crawling though.
13) Hypertonicity: This means arching back frequently, especially while being carried. This is still present, but much less frequently than in the first 6 months.
14) Immunization: We will start her first in 1 months' time. So fingers crossed she'll not succumb to any viruses till then!
15) Kidneys: Scanned for Wilm's Tumour at 6 months - negative.
16) Spine: Scoliosis has been detected and has to be monitored. Mommy will be sussing out an Chiropractor that specialises in infants so that we can hopefully slow or manage the rate of misalignment.
17) Early Intervention Programme: There are none whereby therapists come to your house (wish we lived in the United States!) The waiting list for a place in the school is up to 6 months. We've just signed up. Hopefully, a school environment stimulates her more, but it also opens her up to a whole world of infection. We'll probably have to get all her immunizations done before that.
Whew. What a laundry list. But there are so many other Trisomy babies with even longer, more medically complicated ones. That makes each item here, a blessing.
24 November 2008
Happy 9th Month
Labels:
celebrating milestones
23 November 2008
Then & Now
To all who have helped us get Vera to where she is today, THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart. Vera's milk mothers, T18 mothers who give endless support, Vasu her feeding therapist, grandparents, great grandmother, aunties, uncles, friends - you know who you are. And of course to the man who has given of himself so selflessly 24/7 to care for Vera...I could not have found a better man to marry.
Vera baby, happy 9th month to you!
Labels:
physical development
20 November 2008
Why Is She Still Here?
This was the thought running through my head on the way to work today.
Why is Vera still here? Why is she getting better by the day? Why hasn't she had any apnea spells? Any seizures? Why is she responding to our attempts in feeding therapy? Why is she seeming to be part of the 10% and not the 90% of the statistics?
I can't speak for others, but I believe she's still here because I haven't learnt all the lessons I have to learn from her. But in these 9 months, she's already taught me tonnes. So much that I haven't actually got time to put them into practice.
She's taught me about compassion for others less able.
Before, I'd walk past people begging in the streets, usually out of some physical disability. Today, I do not hesitate to put a penny in the tin.
She's taught me about not holding grudges.
Ian and I differ at times on her care, but in the end we always let it slide, (he uses humour most effectively in dealing with me), because we know our focus is on her, not us.
She's taught me about the power of love.
That nothing is more endearing that hearing the "conversations" Daddy has with Vera. That love can make a man change the very way he speaks. Ian used to speak pretty soft and without much varying of tone. Ha, now check out the sing-song highs and lows! Porky Vera (as he calls her) responds sometimes with grunts and sighs.
But what's really heart-warming is seeing the effect she's had on my Grandmother. I've NEVER heard granny laugh. Nowadays, it's a common affair when she stays over. Vera has brought simple joy to her. I love the sound of her grand old dame laughter. She actually sounds younger.
Vera has a lot more lessons for me I'm sure. Will share them in time to come.
Why is Vera still here? Why is she getting better by the day? Why hasn't she had any apnea spells? Any seizures? Why is she responding to our attempts in feeding therapy? Why is she seeming to be part of the 10% and not the 90% of the statistics?
I can't speak for others, but I believe she's still here because I haven't learnt all the lessons I have to learn from her. But in these 9 months, she's already taught me tonnes. So much that I haven't actually got time to put them into practice.
She's taught me about compassion for others less able.
Before, I'd walk past people begging in the streets, usually out of some physical disability. Today, I do not hesitate to put a penny in the tin.
She's taught me about not holding grudges.
Ian and I differ at times on her care, but in the end we always let it slide, (he uses humour most effectively in dealing with me), because we know our focus is on her, not us.
She's taught me about the power of love.
That nothing is more endearing that hearing the "conversations" Daddy has with Vera. That love can make a man change the very way he speaks. Ian used to speak pretty soft and without much varying of tone. Ha, now check out the sing-song highs and lows! Porky Vera (as he calls her) responds sometimes with grunts and sighs.
But what's really heart-warming is seeing the effect she's had on my Grandmother. I've NEVER heard granny laugh. Nowadays, it's a common affair when she stays over. Vera has brought simple joy to her. I love the sound of her grand old dame laughter. She actually sounds younger.
Vera has a lot more lessons for me I'm sure. Will share them in time to come.
Labels:
philosophical
19 November 2008
She Swallows
Vera had her first VFSS today. For Mommy and Daddy, it was like she was going to take an exam. We told her "Do your best ok? Don't panic, stay calm. Remember mommy taught you to umm mum mum?"
We knew Vera's record for sitting still on her own: 5 minutes. So the challenge was keeping her still long enough for the study. We knew that once she cranks up, it'd be over.
It was quite an experience. Mommy had to wear a full-bodied radiation vest and was the only one allowed to be with Vera. Barium was put into her milk, water and vege puree so it'd show us the stuff as it travels down her airway. Vera was strapped into a chair and you could see an imaging of her mouth as shown here.
The first few teaspoons of puree were well-received by the little tubby. Then Vera started to act up. Mommy played her music toy, did her favourite light touch massage, and she calmed down enough for milk testing. It must have been the strange taste of the barium or the strapping down, for she was struggling to be free in no time.
We did not get to stress her enough to test her threshold (before aspiration takes effect). This is usually done so we know how much to push when doing therapy. But we got enough down to arrive at the following conclusions:
1) Vera can swallow. But it takes several tongue movements before 1 swallow.
2) There's a lot of tongue extrusion still (sliding tongue out instead of inwards). Something we need to work on.
3) The spoon works better than the syringe for giving her liquids. It stimulates more tongue movement as it pre-empts her that something is coming through. With the syringe, liquids pool in her throat which is dangerous.
Bottom line, Chu-chu did much better than I had hoped. We'll certainly have a happy 9 month celebration this weekend. Thanks for all your thoughts and prayers for her continued improvement!
We knew Vera's record for sitting still on her own: 5 minutes. So the challenge was keeping her still long enough for the study. We knew that once she cranks up, it'd be over.
It was quite an experience. Mommy had to wear a full-bodied radiation vest and was the only one allowed to be with Vera. Barium was put into her milk, water and vege puree so it'd show us the stuff as it travels down her airway. Vera was strapped into a chair and you could see an imaging of her mouth as shown here.
The first few teaspoons of puree were well-received by the little tubby. Then Vera started to act up. Mommy played her music toy, did her favourite light touch massage, and she calmed down enough for milk testing. It must have been the strange taste of the barium or the strapping down, for she was struggling to be free in no time.
We did not get to stress her enough to test her threshold (before aspiration takes effect). This is usually done so we know how much to push when doing therapy. But we got enough down to arrive at the following conclusions:
1) Vera can swallow. But it takes several tongue movements before 1 swallow.
2) There's a lot of tongue extrusion still (sliding tongue out instead of inwards). Something we need to work on.
3) The spoon works better than the syringe for giving her liquids. It stimulates more tongue movement as it pre-empts her that something is coming through. With the syringe, liquids pool in her throat which is dangerous.
Bottom line, Chu-chu did much better than I had hoped. We'll certainly have a happy 9 month celebration this weekend. Thanks for all your thoughts and prayers for her continued improvement!
Labels:
feeding therapy,
motor development
18 November 2008
Sleep Woes
Vera is a night bird. We've all heard of babies that sleep at 8pm, wake up in the night for a quick feed and go back to bed and then rise early at 7am.
Why can't she do that? The girl sleeps at 6pm, wakes up at 9pm (when other babies are drifting off to dream land) and sometimes sleeps at 2am! The average sleep time is 12 midnight.
Mommy can't outlast her, so daddy takes over. But the little girl is pretty smart: "Hey, this is not the same ROCKER!!! I'm gonna fuss until I get my regular rocker!!!" Mommy has no choice but to wake up (extremely grumpy) to do the honours.
Last night, for the 3rd time only on record, she slept at 8pm! Our joy was shortlived. She woke at 2am then kept Daddy awake till 5am, before groggy Mommy had to wake up to be the rocker.
Zzzz...Starbuck coffee has been getting a lot of my business lately.
Why can't she do that? The girl sleeps at 6pm, wakes up at 9pm (when other babies are drifting off to dream land) and sometimes sleeps at 2am! The average sleep time is 12 midnight.
Mommy can't outlast her, so daddy takes over. But the little girl is pretty smart: "Hey, this is not the same ROCKER!!! I'm gonna fuss until I get my regular rocker!!!" Mommy has no choice but to wake up (extremely grumpy) to do the honours.
Last night, for the 3rd time only on record, she slept at 8pm! Our joy was shortlived. She woke at 2am then kept Daddy awake till 5am, before groggy Mommy had to wake up to be the rocker.
Zzzz...Starbuck coffee has been getting a lot of my business lately.
Labels:
fatherhood,
motherhood
11 November 2008
Morning Glory
This is Vera when she wakes up in the morning. Minutes from opening her eyes, she'll smile and smile if you tap her hands to her thighs. That toothless grin, spreading from chubby cheek to chubby cheek. Moments like these I forget what she was born with, what she cannot do, what lies ahead. My baby is happy and that's all that matters.
10 November 2008
Big Sister
Over the weekend, Vera met some of her bigger friends. This mature young lady here said, "I can look after 2 babies," Spoken just like a big sister. Looking at her made me wish Vera had one.
Labels:
family n friends
08 November 2008
Swallow Study Soon
Verdict: Vera IS swallowing (they listen to it with a stethescope to the jaw), BUT a little too fast for comfort. Meaning, she can choke. But it's not going into her lungs. Plus, she's begun to show signs of closing her lips around the spoon, instead of rejecting it. However, she can only deal with very small amounts. We've given her apple sauce, pear sauce, peach sauce, and carrot puree so far. Already she seems to like or dislike them.
Bottom line, she's been given the OK for a swallow study (VFSS) in 2 weeks' time. This is a big step towards our aim of oral feeding. We'll find out exactly how liquids are going down into her system. The outcome is we'll be able to determine what textures and consistencies best suit her, so we can continue practising them with her for better results.
We have Vasu to thank for where she's gotten to. He said we must all give special children the benefit of the doubt. He's working towards speech for her, treating her just like a normal child.
Labels:
feeding therapy
02 November 2008
Big Walk
Well, at least she calmed down enough for this shot with the dragonboats on the Kallang River. Hmmm...wonder if our "Tour de Parks" will be shortlived with her intolerance of heat.
Labels:
outings
31 October 2008
New Mat
Choo choo...Thomas the Train come to our house. I thought a proper mat would be good to get her practising turning and sitting on firm ground. Plus the colours should be good for her eyes. If you like this mat, go to this website - there's lots more where this comes from.
Labels:
physiotherapy
30 October 2008
A Day More
Every day is a day more
To see your smiling face
Every day is a day more
To hold you in my embrace
Every day is a day more
To hear your winsome sigh
Every day is a day more
To feel your heart heave next to mine
Every day is a day more
To enjoy you as you are
Every day is a day more than I've ever asked for.
To see your smiling face
Every day is a day more
To hold you in my embrace
Every day is a day more
To hear your winsome sigh
Every day is a day more
To feel your heart heave next to mine
Every day is a day more
To enjoy you as you are
Every day is a day more than I've ever asked for.
Labels:
philosophical
24 October 2008
Can She Hear?

Vera failed the hearing test at the ENT clinic today. On both ears.
"How can that be?" was my first reaction. We knew she has never responded to sound on her left ear, but she's been responding on her right.
It was explained to us that the test was a very stringent one - even if there's mild hearing loss, you'd fail the test. So there's still a possibility that she CAN hear in her right ear, just not perfect hearing.
The ENT doctor suggested we go for a detailed hearing test, which would clear the matter accurately once and for all, but it requires GA and intubation, which we're not keen to subject Vera to at this point in time. So for now, we won't know for sure HOW MUCH she can actually hear us.
No matter what, it doesn't change things. We'll still continue talking and singing to her.
Labels:
Medical: ENT
23 October 2008
What's The Point?
I've been meaning to write about the notion of Futility for a long time.
We first heard this word when we received Vera's diagnosis. It's not an oft-heard word you'd agree. Somehow, it belongs to the realm of other similarly little-said words, like Failure and Feeble.
'Futility of Care' - that's the term they use. Meaning, whatever you do is not gonna make much difference to the end result, which is death. This medical term has been inextricably linked to Trisomy 18. I believe it forms the basis for the point of view of some doctors.
"What's the point?"
Well, the point is, that surviving Trisomy 18 babies are human. They are capable of feeling joy, irritation, contentment. The point is, that progress, although very very slow is possible and a reality. And the point is, that Trisomy 18 babies come in different levels of severity. One futile case is no reason for treating all cases as such.
And for those who give their utmost to these miracle babies at home, the result of care, is far from futile.
We first heard this word when we received Vera's diagnosis. It's not an oft-heard word you'd agree. Somehow, it belongs to the realm of other similarly little-said words, like Failure and Feeble.
'Futility of Care' - that's the term they use. Meaning, whatever you do is not gonna make much difference to the end result, which is death. This medical term has been inextricably linked to Trisomy 18. I believe it forms the basis for the point of view of some doctors.
"What's the point?"
Well, the point is, that surviving Trisomy 18 babies are human. They are capable of feeling joy, irritation, contentment. The point is, that progress, although very very slow is possible and a reality. And the point is, that Trisomy 18 babies come in different levels of severity. One futile case is no reason for treating all cases as such.
And for those who give their utmost to these miracle babies at home, the result of care, is far from futile.
Labels:
philosophical
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