10 October 2010

That Surgery Feeling

When I play with Vera, I have the 'surgery feeling' now.

It's the 'I know what you're in for but you don't have a clue' feeling.

It's the 'I wish I could pre-empt you but there's no way I can' feeling.

It's the 'I decided on your behalf to put you through a lot of pain and you didn't have a choice' feeling.

It's a suckie feeling.

Sometimes it's so hard being a mother.