05 December 2011

Angel Charmaine

Dear Yvonne,

I knew something was amiss when you didn't respond to my email. I feared the worst.

That last thing I needed to hear was that Charmaine passed away on the same day as baby Ruth.

I am sure it is an extremely heart-breaking time for you. Those pictures you sent me of her deck up so prettily always are so precious now.

I celebrate with you those 36 months and 1 week.

Sincerely,
May

2 comments:

Cathy said...

Oh May, I am so glad you have chosen the freelance alternative. I missed your post and truly have not checked in as often. I just came to the blog and saw all your post. I understand how hard the losses are of the Triers. Caleb most recently hit hard. He went in for not a very serious procedure and basically that was it. Days/week after this Annabel went in for the simple line removal, even though being septic and have pulled through, she ended up this time not wakng up for several weeks and experiencing the ventilator. We were told to call all the family in, never have been told this before....it makes it all too real when a sweet Angel passes on... We mark our children's live by theirs. Sweet Vera is changing in her appearance so much. Looking like a little girl and not a baby. This is hard for me. With her age (6 yrs. almost 7 in March) she is a girl, not toddler. I too look and say why us. So many other families planned another child, they long for another baby, unlike me, I was done. I took Annabel for her very brief life, as we were told and almost 7 years later, I am exhausted, wonder how much longer I can go on, but love her and will miss her beyond words. I don't think we will ever be ready, right? We will never know what God is allowing this much time. I fear in the end we will say it wasn't enough time. I will be back more often. I love your words and the pictures you post. Thank you!

Yin May said...

You're right. I don't think we will ever be ready.